SHE'S BEEN TUGGING AND FIGHTING, FOR SO LONG TO GET OUT. SOMETIMES SHE ALMOST MAKES IT THERE, RIGHT AT THAT POINT AND, POW, IS PUSHED THAT MUCH MORE DEEPER INSIDE. tHIS FIGHT HAS BEEN GOING ON FOR SO LONG, AND SHE WONDERS WHY, "WHY DOES SHE CONTINUE FIGHTING ME,WHY WON'T SHE JUST LET GO?" NEVERTHELESS SHE NEVER GIVES UP ON HER AND CONTINUES  ON WITH THE WAR INSIDE. "THE DENIAL,THE CONFUSION,THE TORMENT,ALL GOING ON INSIDE OF HER IT'S TEARING HER IN HERE." "SHE WANTS THIS WAR TO STOP SO BADLY ,SHE'S JUST SO CONFUSED." "SHE FEELS ALL THE FORCES PULLING AT HER AND GOD CALLING HER, SHE'S JUST AFRAID."
SHE WON'T STOP FIGHTING IN THERE FOR HER; HER FREEDOM, AND HER LIFE DEPENDS ON IT.
ONEDAY HER SPIRITUAL SELF WILL WIN THAT BATTLE, IN THERE, THAT WAR.

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how do you guys/gals leave the graphics in the comments? or anywhere else for that matter

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i really don't mean to be a pain but my whole  account is whacked.
MY PAGE, my profile pic won't change, friends are not showing up that i have, i  only have 1 option for my colors that i can pick for my pages, just little things like that. can someone help me? I realize that there was some sort of change made to the system so are these little ticks temporary?

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my mom sent this to me and i cried, it's a real tear jerker:

'You are My Sunshine, My only Sunshine'
 

 Like any good mother, when Karen found out that  another baby was on the way, she did what she could to help her 3-year-old son, Michael, prepare for a new sibling. They found out that the new baby was going be a girl, and day after day, night after night, Michael sang to his sister in mommy's tummy. He was building a bond of love with his little sister before he even met her.
The pregnancy progressed normally for Karen, an active member of the Panther Creek United Methodist Church in Morristown , Tennessee . !
 In time, the labor pains came. Soon it was every five minutes, every three, every minute. But serious complications arose during delivery and Karen found herself in hours of labor. Would a C-section be required? Finally, after a long struggle, Michael's  little sister was born. But she was in very serious condition. With a siren howling in the night, the ambulance rushed the infant to the  neonatal intensive care unit at St. Mary's Hospital, Knoxville, Tennessee . The days inched by. The little girl got  worse. The pediatrician had to tell the parents there is very little hope. Be prepared for the worst.
Karen and her husband contacted a local cemetery about a burial plot. They had fixed up a special room in their house for their new baby but now they found themselves having to plan for a funeral.
Michael, however, kept begging his parents to let him see his sister. I want to sing to her, he kept saying. Week two in intensive care looked as if a funeral would come before the week was over. Michael kept nagging about singing to his sister, but kids are never allowed in Intensive Care. Karen decided to take Michael whether they liked it or not. If he didn't see his sister right then, he may never see her alive. She dressed him in an oversized scrub suit and marched him into ICU. I looked like a walking laundry basket. The head nurse recognized him as a child and bellowed, 'Get that kid out of here now. No children are allowed.' The mother rose up strong in Karen, and the usually mild-mannered lady glared steel-eyed right into the head nurse's face, her lips a firm line. 'He is not leaving until he sings to his sister' she stated. Then Karen towed Michael to his sister's bedside.
He gazed at the tiny infant losing the battle to live. After a moment, he began to sing. In the pure-hearted voice of a 3-year-old, Michael sang:
'You are my sunshine, my only sunshine,
you make me happy when skies are gray.'
Instantly the baby girl seemed to respond. The pulse rate began to calm down and become steady. 'Keep on singing, Michael,' encouraged Karen with tears in her eyes.
'You never know, dear, how much I love you,
please don't take my sunshine away.'
As Michael sang to his sister, the baby's ragged, strained breathing became as smooth as a kitten's purr. 'Keep on singing, sweetheart.'
'The other night, dear, as I lay sleeping,
I dreamed I held you in my arms'.
Michael's little sister began to relax as rest, healing rest, seemed to sweep over her. 'Keep on singing, Michael.' Tears had now conquered the face of the bossy head nurse. Karen glowed.
'You are my sunshine, my only sunshine. Please don't take my sunshine away...'
 The next day...the very next day...the little girl was well enough to go home. Woman's Day Magazine called it The Miracle of a Brother's Song. The medical staff just called it a miracle. Karen called it a miracle of God's love.
 NEVER GIVE UP ON THE PEOPLE YOU LOVE. LOVE IS SO INCREDIBLY POWERFUL.
 Life is good.
Have a Wonderful Day!

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I just have to thankevery one for your comforting feedback, It rocks just to have this place where i can say what i need to for my self.I can't even explain how medicinal this all is for me. well i'm getting really sappy now so Thanx all

By the way i'm on my way to a meeting in about 5 minutes in my own car!"God is so good to me" (yeah he's back and sulking well talk later gotta go all.

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Free

free will

free to be

free to love

free to know

free to love me

free to live

Thankyou God for giving me

Freedom

free from the old me!

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hey guys, i really don't know if this is the right place to post this but i need to vent and my sponsor is at work everyone else seems to be busy and i am all up in my head right now. My fiance is gone with the car.  We just purchased a car we have had it a week he has been cleean and sober less than a month and this was the first time he went alone with the vehicle, and of course he hasn't been home allnight. I am afraid for the car, for him,and for myself. I want to go out looking for him, but i know in  my mind that is not a good idea because i am only coming up on 2 months myself. I keep thinking about how long it took to save this darn money for this car and some dope dealer might be driving it around. my sponsor keep drilling this acceptance at me but that is so hard to accept. i have kids and i need a car bad and its going to take me along time to save foe another car. See here I am at the point where i may never see the car or him again, and it's only the second day he may stroll in here at any time. thanks for letting me vent. i sure could use some feedback.

I first put this on the bulletin but then i copied it here. thought it would be a better place for it

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Iguess maybe i am just tired of it ALWAYS BEING ME TO TAKE UP ALL THE SLACK, IN THE RELATIONSHIP.  WE BOTH ARE NEW IN THIS TWELVE STEP PROGRAM AND HE;S DOIN AA AND I'M MAINLY NA . MOST TIMES IT'S NOT A PROBLEM, LATELY HIS SPONSOR HAS BEEN ALL UP IN OUR BUSINESS AND I'M GETTING UPSET. wELL LIKE A GOOD GIRL I AM JUST TAKING IT IN STRIDE AND BITING MY TONGUE WHEN HIS SPONSOR MAKES THESE DUMB ASS REMARKS, AND I'LL JUST BE QUIET.BECAUSE I'M NEW AND HE HAS LIKE18 YEARS SOBER!

I ALSO AFRAID THAT THOUGH WE CAME IN TOGETHER AND WE ARE STILL TOGETHER I HAVE THIS FEELING THAT HIS GROUP IS TRYING TO SUGGEST THAT HE BE BY HIMSELF FOR THE FIRST YEAR!

WHAT THE F   K ABOUT ME AND OUR FAMILY?  NO, WE ARE NOT MARRIED BY LAW BUT WE HAVE BEEN TOGEHTER FOR 2 YEARS NOW ANDTHINGS WOULD BE HARD ON US BOTH WITHOUT EACH OTHERS FINANCIALLY. AGAIN WE ARE NEW AND MY GUY IS WILLING TO DO ANYTHING HIS SPONSOR TELLS HIM TO DO LIKE HE'S GOD! I AM VERY PROUD OF HIM, BUT THERE HAS TO A LIMIT DOESN'T THERE?

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