2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
I remember the days when I was drinking how in the morning when I would wake up and say GOD, just let me not drink today. Help me GOD. But looking back in retrospect I was going through the motions.
How did I get this to this point in life that I was going through the motions with GOD. I feel like such a s**t.
GOD is with me everyday and I was so stinking drunk that I couldn't see it at the time. Crazy I know, but the funny thing is finding him and coming to terms that GOD or a higher power could restore my sanity. It seems so simple yet at the time it was so hard. Why?
Had I gotten to my lowest point where my spirit no longer believed that there was more in life than myself not to mention a spiritual being greater than me. And GOD is going to stop me from drinking? But the really crazy thing is that no matter how hard I faught GOD in my life, he was there with me always. He watched over me, always. He waited for me patiently. GOD never left my side. And when I was ready, he came right back to my heart and is with me as I write this. He is reaching out to you all through me while I writing letting you know that HE loves you all and he will do all that he can do to help. There is one condition. Just believe and let him show you that YOU CAN be free of your problems and you can be sober, all you have to do is ask.
Bless you all and may you find him now.
Peace,
D
So I celebrated my 2 year anniversary with my home group last night. It had been a while since I had been there. See I moved out of the area, way out of the area. So getting to my home meetings is kinda tough.
I had someone in recovery ask me for my help because they can't find any group near them in their town. They ask what I thought they should do? I basically told them to keeping looking. However I felt like I left them short.
So, I ask them now. How bad do you want it? Really? How bad do you want to be sober? I drive an extra hour to get to a meeting and I try to go twice a week.
Now I have been sober for over 2 years now, and meeting are still important to me and my staying sober.
I asked my home group last night, why? Why do they still do meetings?
Now mind you some of these folks have been sober for a long time.
For the most part they said that they are there to share their wisdom and get a little bit back from those that share.
The the moderator "Dave" said that he didn't really feel he needed to be at meetings. For he felt he knew where he was with his sobriety. Had been there long enough that coming wasn't really necessary. What he do know, was that meetings reminded him of where he used to be.
Meetings reminded that he was in a better place at meetings and he remembered where he was before he found AA and attended meetings. And he an old timer said that he always learns something when he attends meetings.
Now it is so funny. I remember when I was first starting out with sobriety and how all the members where so happy and they would say that if I wanted what they had that is was there for the taking and free. Just a few little rules to follow and most of all, don't drink.
Well I have reached that point at meetings that I am happy like the others. But it took work. It took patience, and it took desire.
I want this bad, and I love where I am in my sobriety.
And I think you will too if you don't give up.
Hang in there.
Peace,
D
I remember the mornings when I would wake up and I just wanted to stay in bed. I was paralyzed and didn't even want to think.
My head hurt. My body ached and s**t really didn't matter. Nothing mattered but getting my next drink.
Getting in the shower was my daily baptism and hope for a new day, that always turned into failure. I F***ing hate failure.
But as hard as it was I moved forward. I made my daily journey, but only with drink or drinks in hand to help me.
I always looked at those around me what it was like to be sober. How did all these "Normal" folks do it? I wanted it. I wanted it bad. But how did I get it? I didn't get it?
Then the day came that I wanted so bad that I would do whatever I had to do to get it. I was very successful at drinking, so I knew in my heart that I could be successful in sobriety.
I think the first key is how bad do you want to be sober. How bad do you want to stop the headaches, body pains, needles, stink, filth, whatever. How bad do you want it.
I have sobriety and I have to work it hard everyday. It is my most important task for the day. I live it. I want it. I love sobriety.
It is easy, but you have to want it and want it bad.
To start, see it. See sobriety in your life. Join AA, NA, SA, whatever, but just do it. YOu did everything you could to get drunk or get your daily fix.
Now get your sobriety.
Peace,
d
