Just wanted to take a moment to say thanks to all the friends I have met on this website. Thanks for the comments and messages.
I've been away for awhile.partly due to work and partly due to being sick. I wish I could say that I am doing better, but I don't thinki I am. I don't know how you all do it. You all seem so strong, and I am amazed.
I hate being alone. This guy that I love has me really messed up and I wish I could figure out how to let go. In my mind, I feel like I know what I should do, but who decides what should or should not be done?
Am I wrong to want a relationship with a guy? I just want someone to love me for who I am and not for what I can do for them or give to them. How do you learn to live alone? I dont do that very well at all. I was so lonely, i went and spent time with my ex-husband ( who I think has finally agreed that he has a drinking problem and has actually started to go to AA meetings). I had a very nice time and he was so nice to me. He's such a loser and even he has someone new in his life. What's wrong with me?
Sorry for rambling on and on, but I really wanted you all to know that I am still here and I REALLY appreciate all the kind thoughts and words.
