so i just recently (5 days ago) realized that my (many) sexual issues is what has been holding me back my entire life.  i realized i need healing time to regroup myself...i don't even know who i am without this in my life...or who i could be.  the last several days have been extremely positive and life changing...last night i had a wet dream and today has been a painful struggle.  i have many ranging sexual fantasies that i know aren't normal and i would like to find out more about them but i haven't had much luck searching online because that always leads to porn sites...AAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!!  anyway, i still feel a bit reserved sharing all this about myself, but i am open...and i know that i have to do this....so anyone with any feed back or input or questions or answers or good jokes or anything else that will bbe beneficial, please....