When will you start to love you? There is a wonderful person inside of you, pray you find her. You won't need "others" to complete you.

Your "boyfriend" will have to go on his own little journey to find "him", seperate completely from your journey.

luv

Thankfully my wife has never been into porn, but she has done other destructive things in our relationship. To me there has been a correlation between how much I go off into my porn addictions and how much she goes off into her other addictions. When I am not there for her (emotionally, etc.) then she finds other ways to fulfill her desires and needs. I have to walk the line of not being codependent with her and not blaming myself for her weaknesses, but also realize that the more present that I can be for her, the more aware of her needs and wants, and love her in spite of her sins and weaknesses and yet try to help her walk away from them and try to be vigilant against them, then the better our relationship will be. 

It is a tricky thing, these relationships. For me, there has been a continual necessity to grow in greater understanding and obedience to God's ways in a relationship rather than the impure and destructive fantasies that I used to fill my heart and mind with. I also think of  the command of my Higher Power to do unto others as I would have them do unto me.  

So a little rambling. But whether it is a place to let go of your relationship, confront your boyfriend, or shower him with more prayer and forgiveness (or some of all three), I am not sure. But I do know that it is an opportunity to learn more about how your Higher Power would want you to respond. 

Peace.

I use to post porn years ago it became an obsession, but thank God I don't display that type of behavior anymore. It wasn't about being sexual, just got addicted to posting it. I got alot of attention from people because of it, and that was a high for me. I fed off the attention, but now I find more healthier ways to feed me. I don't even know why I am putting my business out there like that, but I can totally relate! I was married at the time, and my husband questioned me alot about it. Thank God that obsession was lifted from me because I could care less about porn now. I realized for the first time a couple of weeks ago how many obsessions I've had. Point being I had! I came up with about 10 things I think, and porn was on that list! This is where our disease manifests in different areas of our lives at least for me anyways...That's a real bummer that is happening to you because I'm sure my husband at that particular time didn't like what I was doing so my heart goes out to you! You definitely have a valid reason to feel the way you do, and I hope everything works out in your favor!  Good luck to you!
--Angie Fallowfield