Dear Lord Jesus, I praise You for coming to dwell in my life by grace through faith. I hope in You now for the daily rest my weary soul desperately needs, Amen.

I'm still here & struggle here & there...I just need to be stronger to win the fight of my addictions with God by my side. Why's it so hard to keep Him by my side?

All that stuff disgusts me now & I'm realizing that. I'm finding myself to be slowly in His grace & presence again, & I'm loving it. I did have a depressive episode yesterday where I didn't feel "enough" for me or my boyfriend. I'm just making a mockery of God for that...But it's my self-esteem, I had to learn how to deal with that & my emotions that were pouring out of me. I'm usually the type to shut them up instead. Bring all your weaknesses into the light.

I want to get a Christian Accountability/Bible Study group together by this summer.

I hope you're all doing well...I still think about you guys!!!!!!

Chanel xoxo