Lord Jesus, I look at Your life on earth and I see the obedience that I yearn to experience. I know that I can not produce such a life on my own. I think of You living in me, and I have hope that I can grow in obedience. So, I place my hope in You to express Your obedient heart in and through my choices, my words, my actions, my entire life, Amen.

It's been a while & I've been very busy. I'm busy with finishing up school this semester, figuring out about taking medical administrative assisting instead, babysitting & working. All of that is going pretty well though...Can't complain. I'm over 70 days of sobriety & going on strong, hopefully! I still don't trust that darn TV in the living room at times. I know that the devil is fighting to pull me down with him, but I want to live according to Jesus Christ. I give myself to Him each and every day. I've been reading His word again & it feels so good.

Although my bisexual tendencies are creeping up on me again. There's this new girl at work who I think is cute, & seems to be very friendly with me. For a girl. I don't fantasize about her...I don't fantasize about anyone anymore. But I'm afraid I could become obsessive about it. I think it's okay to be curious, as long as I'm healthy about it. I just want to become her friend & feel her out...I don't want this to turn into LUST.

Other than that, been talking to an old friend & we're going to make plans to hang out sometime.

Take care & I hope you're all doing well!

Chanel xoxo