So not much happened in court today. My lawyer did not have the discovery yet so no settlement could be made. New court dates the end of April and the beginning of May. Alot of things are bothering about today though. Julie (the CPS worker) was there and will be at all of the court hearings. I do not like her for many reasons. First of all I know I did wrong by taking Dan to meetings but I was not doing it to see if I could get away with it. I did it because I did not want him to drink! (yes, I know, Putting his sobriety before mine) But I feel alot of our situation could have been avoided if she had listened and answered our questions. for instance, once I called with a serious question and her reponse to me was "You are a big girl, you do what you want" I would not have asked for advice if I didn't want it. Or another good one is I would call repeatedly and not get a return call. One day I came home from work and there was a message on my answering machine stating she would return my calls if I left a phone number. Ok, I always left a phone number and if you didn't have a phone number how did you leave this message. And then there is all the bulls**t she has put Melissa through. She would not return Melissa's calls, She promised her all kinds of assistance.(Melissa is just getting the assistance, and the kids have been there since november.) I get the impression Julie thinks she is God.Then I get home from court and my father calls to see how we made out. After explaining everything he says something like "you should just go get the kids and bring them home. This is America not Russia. Melissa is young. She needs to get a job" OK so now I am speechless because either I will holler at him or I will cry. I would love to go and get the kids, but does he realize I would NEVER get them back if I did something like that. I know I have caused him alot of pain BUT I am in pain too. I suffer daily!! Doesn't ANYONE get that, Then my mother inlaw shows up and she is always so negative. She bitched because we had an unreliable vehicles and now she is bitching because we got a reliable one. WTF! I think she thinks I am not good enough for her son when if anything it would be more likely to be the other way around. So could my day get worst? YES!! my son starts messaging me on the computer and his first message is "Dad is stupid" when I ask why he said this he had somehow assumed that they were not coming home because Dan didn't have a lawyer. I assured him it had nothing to do with that. Then he totally blew my mind in his next message. He said, "Melissa says we will be here till we are 18" I replied "She is only joking because of how slow things seem to be moving" His reply was, "No she said that guardian person asked if she could take us till we were 18" I told him I was quite sure that Melissa would have said something to me if this was the case but that she had not so that could not be true. he must have misunderstood her. I am going to take a shower and go to bed so nothing else brings me down today. I am so sad right now.



GOD, GRANT ME THE SERENITY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE, THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN AND THE WISDOM TO KNOW THE DIFFERENCE.

GOD LED ME TO THIS, HE WILL LEAD ME THROUGH THIS.

AND...

GOD WOULD NOT GIVE ME MORE THAN I COULD HANDLE

would he??

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