Hi everyone, I havent written a blog for a long while, since I took a week out to work on my step 4 actually, which turned out to be the best thing I have ever done, in so many ways.

I feel I have overcome the small relapses I was going through, and life is changing so much that it almost takes my breath away, the changes in me are truly amazing, my family are blown away.

I spent a week in solitude to work on step 4, in that week I made some very radical decisions about many, many things, all these things combined and a commitment to working on them is transforming me and my world.

First of all I decided to become a Christian, I have joined a local church and got involved in Voluntary work with the church, reaching out to the elderly, homeless, lonely and needy.  This is keeping me sober, I have been embraced by wonderful people who I am honoured to call friends.

Secondly, I became an Aunt for the first time.  My sister having a son has had a profound effect on me, all for the better.  I am truly relishing my role as Aunt and enjoying making clothes for my nephew and taking care of him.

I was suffering badly with my depression.  I was not been kind to myself in mind or body and this was possible the most serious problem of all, I have a wonderful doctor who has treated me for many years, I made an appointment to see him and for the first time, was able to be open and honest about how I was feeling and many other issues.  I am now taking the right medication and the right dosages and being sober for the first time whilst taking them, they are working in the right way and I am feeling so much better.

I cleared out my life, gave away/sold/donated to charity all the stuff I no longer want or need in my life, all the material excesses that had become so important to me, you should have seen how much stuff I shipped out!  After this I felt cleansed.

All these things and my daily commitment to them have made my life beautiful, I am happy and for the first time, maybe ever, I have found a true and lasting Inner Peace.

I thank my friends here who mean the world to me, thank you for keeping me strong and keeping me sober, I am so grateful to you and your continued love and support.