i need to read this again and again so i am posting it here where i can find it

i am not a normal person, i cannot have just one, i am a man who has lost my legs and the hardest part is that they will never grow back.  

one of the hardest parts of recovery for me is that i can never be like others. 


when i desire to have just one or even just one night to relax after work or take the edge off, i pray, i go to a meeting (there are so many here in Los Angeles, it really is a great place to get sober) or on a walk, or to a favorite spot (a park, the stables, a coffee shop) and do everything i would have been doing to relax without the drugs or alcohol. 

i know how much it sucks to have to be different, i know how much it sucks to not be able to just take a hit or a drink or a pill to relax or to get the head to shut up, but it was never just one hit or just one drink or just one pill. 

my life depends on me staying sober, without my sobriety i would be dead.