I have been talking quite a bit lately about surrender. For the past few weeks I have been hitting my head against the proverbial WALL.I was stuck, I knew that without God I was going to go nowhere and I had spent way to long in THAT place.But I had issues with God trust most definitely fear you bet ya and of course good old EGO I could do it all by myself didn't need God and didn't need people.

Well this a.m. I got a real eye opener. I found a paper on the symptoms of relapse and of the 12 11 applied to me! I thought for a moment realized I was in a lot of trouble and walked up to my room and fell to my knees. I have learned that some times it just takes action and that is what I did. I managed to talk to a future friend in the program and just told him I was in trouble he said we will get you to meetings and introduce you to some old timers. He is also starting a step meeting.

So the question is "Have I surrendered?" Well I think I made a very good start today I plan on going home after work and before I go to bed get back on my knees and thank Him for a good day of sobriety.

Thank You

Gary 

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