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Posted On: 09/05/2007 14:50:28
i believe one of the hardest things i have to watch in my life is the self-destruction of my brother. i live with him and his family. they were kind and forgiving enough to allow me to stay with them until i get my life back on track. they are good ppl with great careers and 2 well mannered boys (18 & 14). my brother has cronic back pain and has had several major surgeries on his back. this has been going on for over 18yrs. and so has his pill usage. he takes prescription pain pills. and although his wife gives him the correct amount each day, he still tends to pull addict behaviors and overdose from time to time, or steal his pills or buy more online. ive talked to him about recovery and hes well aware of the program and what goes along with that. they only problem is his back, in which he cant quit taking his pills. his body is overly dependent on them and it would be fatal to come off of them (hes had many doctors opinions). its truely sad to watch him, and his actions cuz i know what hes going through and what hes doing. i often wonder "was i like that?" the answer is yes... and i still am. i still carry those traits and behaviors. yet, mine isnt as active as his is.... if anyone has any feedback, i would appreciate it... thanks all and be blessed!

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From: jd
09/05/2007 21:04:28

you have to want recovery to get it.  you've done all you can.  you've planted the seed.  love your brother.  pray for him. 



From: I_am_tainted_too
09/05/2007 16:05:56
My dad is in a similar situation, he has been told he will need to have both hips replaced. He has worked in furniture since he was like 15 years old, and has been an alcoholic almost just as long. He is now combining alcohol and pain meds, and I worry a lot about him. He lives with my grandmother, who makes excuses for his drinking, but does not know about the pain meds to my knowledge. These were a recent addition. He cries out at night while he is sleeping from the pain, and sometimes he just never goes to bed, he staggers around her house all night - in and out of the kitchen getting more booze, then to the bathroom. His eyes are always watery and red and his speech is slurry. When he wakes up the next day around 2 or 3pm, he has no recollection of what he has said or done the night before, so he repeats something he has told you already or you find yourself repeating what you have told him. Guess my story doesn't really make you feel better....but I know where you are - it isn't easy watching someone you love turn into someone you barely even recognize anymore.



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