here i sit in my pj's.  the kids are already tucked in and asleep.  as i'm kissing their heads i realize this is the 2nd year that i wasn't concerned about being involved w/ some kind of party so i could get drunk.  i also wasn't encouraging a toddler to stay up till midnight.  boy, i made some stupid decisions using alcohol.

last year was my first sober holiday.  being new and green to recovery, it was hazy.  this year is so real and awesome.  i can feel it.  really feel it.  the peace of the celebration.  all of it.  it's ineffable.

i'm so glad to be a part of the aa fellowship. 

knowing that i won't last til midnight makes me grin.

i'm also touched that i'm able to babble here.  thank you everyone and bless you.

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