'what is wrong with you?'  i'm asked. 

good question.  i've come to the conclusion that i'm not letting go of some character defects:  selfishness and criticism.

this is the season to celebrate the gift of love, peace and forgiveness. 

well, i don't know if i can love tenderly.  and the reason for that is i'm not sure i'm ready and willing to let go of these defects.  i guess it all depends on how miserable i am with them compared to with out them.  make sense?

sadly i realize if i can't give this tender love, someone else could.  we all derserve to be loved tenderly.

so today i pray for the willingness to let go if these defects...and what shall be will still be, only on  a happier note.

thanks everyone for letting me dump.