It often feels better to write it out like you just did. Hey! If I am in pain, I yelp every now and then.. That is human.. Don't worry what others say. There are always going to be people who are going to try and work your program for you. Work it the best you can and know that someone else is always got a different opinion on what you "should" be doing! I just ignore what they say and pray for them.. Or I sometimes say "Live and Let Live"... Not in a harsh way, I smile and say it...You are doing fine...Don't be hard on yourself.. If you are in pain--let it out!!!  Holler out "Jesus, help me!!!!!"--He will! .

Peace and Blessings,

You are in my prayers!

Pat

We all do it. I yell or say mean things to my almost 3-year old son and he is the cutest most precious thing ever! But his actions aren't always so precious. I always wind up feeling terrible immediately after, or atleast when I have calmed down. Then, we always have a talk about when I was "mean mommy" and his actions that led to that. I will tell him what it was that he did that was not acceptable, but I will also tell him mommy should not have yelled, and that part was not his fault- we both wind up apologizing in our own way. I know that is too simplistic of a way for you to deal with a 19 year old, but talking about what led up to your outburst may lead to a better understanding on both your parts. Not to say you are allowing him to take blame for anything you may have said, just letting him know that you are human with faults too. If my 3 year old can understand that his mommy has an occasional bad day, I am certain your 19 year old can as well. The important thing is, you are not making excuses, you are trying to admit your behavior in order to better understand it and hopefully control it...AND to FORGIVE yourself. That is the hardest part, none of us are perfect - don't beat yourself up about it. The fact that you immediately recognized your anger as going overboard and brought it to light, says you did not do it intentionally. Talking it out with your son, not just with an apology, but an explaination may help both of you - he will not love you less, but more...for loving him and respecting him enough to let him know a little of what you are going through, from your prospective. God Bless!  

Let it out sweetie!  You just let it out. We are all here for each other and we all have been in the same kinda situation. Many a time I've said something to my 17 year old and 15 while drinking, that I wasn't proud of. She forgives me of all the BS I put her through.  They will forgive and forget.  I'm so happy that mine did.

Take it easy on yourself and let things go when you need to!

hey, shout your feelings to me anytime.  as long as your not shouting about me.  lol

you are aware you don't have to do this alone right? 

love ya.  xo