I remember the mornings when I would wake up and I just wanted to stay in bed.  I was paralyzed and didn't even want to think.

My head hurt.  My body ached and s**t really didn't matter.  Nothing mattered but getting my next drink.

Getting in the shower was my daily baptism and hope for a new day, that always turned into failure.  I F***ing hate failure.

But as hard as it was I moved forward.  I made my daily journey, but only with drink or drinks in hand to help me.

I always looked at those around me what it was like to be sober.  How did all these "Normal" folks do it?  I wanted it.  I wanted it bad.  But how did I get it?  I didn't get it?

Then the day came that I wanted so bad that I would do whatever I had to do to get it.  I was very successful at drinking, so I knew in my heart that I could be successful in sobriety.

I think the first key is how bad do you want to be sober.  How bad do you want to stop the headaches, body pains, needles, stink, filth, whatever.  How bad do you want it.

I have sobriety and I have to work it hard everyday.  It is my most important task for the day.  I live it.  I want it. I love sobriety.

It is easy, but you have to want it and want it bad.

To start, see it.  See sobriety in your life.  Join AA, NA, SA, whatever, but just do it.  YOu did everything you could to get drunk or get your daily fix.  

Now get your sobriety.

Peace,

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