It was strongly suggested (alright I was told to write today).  The last couple of days I've been a bit detached.  I guess you could call it a sort of limbo, not really aware of what I think or feel.  I'be been doing a lot of things to comfort myself, which means that someone inside is probably upset.  I've been feeling really lonesly, even when I'm around people--back to feeling like there is no one I can tell about parts of me. 

I had to go get my soft blanket so I could keep writing....I'm geeling really apacy--like the hads that are writing aren't really part of my body....that's all for now....