Recovery literature reminds me that in my dependency illness, "we had been faithful, abjectly faithful to the God of reason" (Alcoholics Anonymous p.54). I contrast, wise King solomon wrote:" Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding". Although intelligence and reason are precious gifts from God, my most important human relationships and spiritual issues are matters primarily of the heart and not the head.
If only I got a penny every time I tried to think my way out of chronically painful emotions? Or tried to reson my way out of the emptiness of spiritual bankruptcy?
"to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God" involves different forms of surrender. I have to surrender the inflated sense of my own intelligence, and beging to lean, not in my own understanding, but on the God of my understanding