Who do you let down the most (see a mirror)? Think you are not your enemy? Think on these things and you may find a new truth! My wife said during my first year"if this is what your like clean and sober- go back to using". She did not mean it, and I didn't, but share this to show you early sobriety was tough for many of us! Hope your Friday meeting helped!

luv

I had to put my disease in HP's hands; and work my program, One day at a time.

(Sometimes:One moment at a time!)

Responsibility is the ability to respond.   How ? H.O.W.    ( Honesty,

openmindedness, willingness...)

It is tough at the beginning but it gets better if we keep coming to meetings

and taking suggestions....Sponsors help too....             Nia

a couple things. I find that i need to take my daily medicine every day as early as possible for my recovery and get my medicine before i go to bed. Meaning meetings, when i dont get meetings i act like a bipolar person or the drug addict that I am and i get goofy in the head. Same thing with calling sponsor.

Every clean day is a successful day no matter what, and just an honest pointer that your not going to feel great in recovery, its normal life. But u discover things about yourself that are unresolved issues and you finally get a chance at life to resolve them dude... Its your time, why screw it up by picking up another drink or drug?

You are not responsible for your disease but you are responsible for your recovery.

I guarantee you if you stop worrying about other people and what they think that your problems will drop 70% maybe even more.

And on acceptance: You can have full acceptance of a situation and still leave room in your heart for miracles. Acceptance is curiosity about how things might change, but not anxiety about changing them through effort and brute force. Instead of coming to acceptt that things are not as you would like them to be, i myself choose to surround myself with fear and self doubt, self righteousness and anger, and a negative outlook which generalizes to "Im a loser". Acceptance has the power to free us from fear and doubt.

This moment is perfect in its own way.

The next step towards peace of mind is accepting the world as it pressents itself. IRONICALLY, only when we STOP thinking that things should be different than they are, we can ACTUALLY have a DIFFERENT experience. When there is something you can do to ocntribute to a situation, then it is your business to take that action man..

-Sam

I don't think that a person is supposed to feel better or worse when not using as opposed to using. For me, it's like i give myself a chance to feel ANYthing but not using, as opposed to feel nothing and being an empty shell while using. You'll have good and bad days, but that's just part of life. The biggest difference for me in sobriety is that i get to make choices today. When i was using, my addiction usually chose for me. It chose what i did, who i hung around, where i spent my money and time...today i pretty much get to choose all that myself. and for that, i am grateful. Keep fightin the good fight soldier, it's worth it, and you deserve the gifts that sobriety will bring to you. Patience is a bitch, I know I've been struggling with it lately. Hang in there, stay sober, and it will get better, I promise you. hugs! Jessie

Life on Lifes terms.

I feel like that all the time but, we can't stop doing the right thing sweetie. It's a process although not something to enjoy. Getting better takes work and we are people who want to run from those feelings. I understand what you're saying. Things that are worth it in the long run need feeling. Sometimes those feelings hurt and we don't want to face them. I know that's how I am. We learned to run from feelings as addicted people. Maybe it's time to face those feelings. So, you let people down...so have I but, when will we understand that all that can be changed. You're NOT crap...got it? You're a person of great self worth....now show the world that okay? It's not healthy for our recovery to focus on what could have been. Start today and understand your feelings are going to change moment by moment. If we find it hard to do one day at a time....we need to do this moment by moment. Don't beat yourself up okay? It's a process. I'm still dealing with it. I do the same thing you're doing...yes, I understand but, it doesn't have to be this way. WE ARE WORTH MORE THAN THAT! Part of the healing process is forgiving yourself honestly knowing and believing if we stick with the program we will have an increadible victory! You just trust and do what you can today. Stick with it! I'm here praying for you my friend. WE WILL MAKE IT...don't give thought to the past...give thought to what an increadible person you are with the twelve steps and your H.P. 

Love ya my friend,

Nancy