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My Sponsor and View on Meds
Posted On: 04/29/2009 00:54:02

Hi,

I have to confess something. I have not been abusing my medication, i am prescribed two medicines, one for bipolar disorder and 1 for trazadone. And this has been buggin the s**t out of me today what my sponsor said to me. He said, "Your using!" "Its drug abuse, i kno you like to play around with your medication..." And im like... Im no longer in denial about that, I really am not. It like kind of shocked me that he said that. I've been workin so hard, blah blah blah... I have been working hard though.

What I am doing though is not right. Has to do with earning something from the government because I am on a certain medication... If you get the drift.. We disclose in a general way, but not specific way in public.

And I know truly that I am not this diagnosis, i might be, but in my heart im not... And this is a huge issue with me

I don't know if this is called abusing drugs sinec Im on medication that i convinced myself 2 years ago that i needed to be on because of my disease of addiction. None of these are addictive. My sponsor said i still have a drug dealer and thats "Pharma". I'm really considering getting off my trazadone and just stop taking the other med and still being prescribed it, playing stupid s**t like in order to still receive something in... I'm afraid of this situatio and has been a long time coming, an dmight continue to be  along time coming.

I know that I'm man enough to stand up, but I just don't know how. I know that I am not abusing my medication, but i guess in a sense my sponsor means that Im using drugs that aren't for me but they have changed my chemistry and when i do get off of them that i will be f'd in the head for a bit and maybe for a while. He challenged me to stand up... I'm freaked the f out...

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From: OldSchool777
04/29/2009 21:33:27

Some,


   You don't know me, and I don't know you, but your story aggrivated me to pieces. What you need to do is stay on your medications and get a new sponsor. One that is not a self righteous pompous ass.God put all the necessary plants, roots, e.t.c. to make medicines. Some people need to have medicine and that my friend is a fact of life and truth. This is what bothers me about THE PROGRAM. Too legalistic and no one needs the LAW when their doing nothing wrong. Some people are born with a chemical imbalance. So, would your sponsor rather have you freaked out and not 100%, then to be medicated and feel great and normal. Look my friend, your sobriety is between you and your higher power as you understand him/her/whatever. You had every right to be freaked. Look I'm well aware of the doctor, pharmacy, insurance, government deal. But bipolar is not just a diagnosis that doctors throw at people. Sure cold, flu, etc, but being bipolar requires certain very specific meds that will balance your imbalance. Anyone who would have you put your life at risk is an idiot with good intentions.


   Have you ever heard the saying "some things are better left unsaid" There are positives and negatives to telling someone everything about you. I agree with Bob, Your sponsor has missed something BIG-TIME!


By the way, you do not talk yourself out of a doctors diagnosis of being bi-polor. You need to stay in touch with the Doc about that stuff, or you could end up in serious medical trouble, possibly to death. Take care of yourself, and I will be praying. OldSchool777


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From: Bob777
04/29/2009 18:43:42

Hi Sam,


What Dennis said is an inarguable fact. Sponsors are to helps us walk through the steps, so that we may in turn walk another through those very same steps. In my opinion, your sponsor has taken a wrong turn somewhere in his or her steps. Take care, Bob

From: Philip
04/29/2009 09:23:11

Doctor heal thy self

From: Drew
04/29/2009 09:12:14

It Seems Like To Me That You Are Standing UP !!! I Have People In My Life And I work With People (I Have Taken Classes About People) That Take Meds For Certian Disorders. My Sponsor is an addictionoligest as well.


Here Is what My Take Is Doctors Give Us stuff to fix what we tell them is wrong with us. So My first step would be to go to my doctor and tell him or her exactly whats going on in my head anotherwords get retested then go from there. I am not a doctor so I dont try to be one thats there Job !!!!! I do Know Honesty With My Doctors and finding Doctors that understand ADDICTION Is the Key For ME.


Anotherwords Hello Doc. My Name Is Drew and I am An Alcoholic/Addict


NOTE: Some Meds You Dont Just Stop Taking!!!! Work With Your Doctor On This!!!!

From: DennisS
04/29/2009 07:15:23

Sam -


My sponsor has one purpose - to guide me in my efforts in sobriety. Period. Not advise me as to my medical problems, stock market options or the best new car to buy. There are experts I can choose to go to for those other things if I care. My sponsor works out of the Big Book. It tell us both where our responsibilities lie.


YF,


Dennis

From: flowerchildofjc
04/29/2009 02:08:05

I can relate my sponsor has told me I don't need meds either. Then when I flip out and say I haven't taken them she tells me that I should not not take them...honestly everyone is different and everyone, including sponsers, have sometimes strong opinions on certain topics. There is a reason why your sponsor is telling you what he told you. He might not be right, and maybe he wasn't nice about it, I don't know, but they usually have our best interest at heart. They are fragile humans, and sick alcoholics just like the rest of us Don't take it personally, seriously.


hugs


Jessie

From: Someserenity
04/29/2009 01:42:50

Because I know where I am now, and I know where I was, and I am a helluv alot better now, no comparison, so far away from where i was. And I was diagnosed with having bipolar and have been hospitalized before several times that had to do with that and drug related. My doctor has taken me through hard times and stuck with me and she has helped me alot and stabilized me. I'm gonna go with the professional whose been studying for years, follow prescription, and sponsor really has no right.

From: Someserenity
04/29/2009 01:41:16

Yeah its time to grow up for me and f my sponsor's opinion on it.



flowerchildofjc wrote:


Hmmm. I was just prescribed and got a prescription for Trazadone on Tuesday. It's been a week and I still haven't taken it. I understand your fear of taking or not taking meds. It's very tricky. If you are not bipolar, stop taking the meds, but not before you talk to a doctor THAT YOU TRUST!! and one that knows you are in recovery. Probably slowly wean off of it, little by little. Again, don't do anything til you talk to a doctor hun. I was on meds for s**t that i didn't have for years! my mother came home with something new everyday and forced me to take them, with no diagnoses. Today I take Lexapro which is for Anxiety and Depression, and I know that I have both. Many people in recovery are prescribed meds for bipolar, because Lord knows that ALL of us have some pretty serious mood swings, especially in early recovery years. Best of luck to you my friend!




hugs




Jessie



From: flowerchildofjc
04/29/2009 01:34:27

Hmmm. I was just prescribed and got a prescription for Trazadone on Tuesday. It's been a week and I still haven't taken it. I understand your fear of taking or not taking meds. It's very tricky. If you are not bipolar, stop taking the meds, but not before you talk to a doctor THAT YOU TRUST!! and one that knows you are in recovery. Probably slowly wean off of it, little by little. Again, don't do anything til you talk to a doctor hun. I was on meds for s**t that i didn't have for years! my mother came home with something new everyday and forced me to take them, with no diagnoses. Today I take Lexapro which is for Anxiety and Depression, and I know that I have both. Many people in recovery are prescribed meds for bipolar, because Lord knows that ALL of us have some pretty serious mood swings, especially in early recovery years. Best of luck to you my friend!


hugs


Jessie


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