Hi Family, I had to go back to Tampa on Feb 15th. My father was very sick. I was just out there in January at his request to go over his living will and what he wanted done in case anything happened to him. I was honored that my father had regained so much trust in me to ask that - I have the program & my recovery to thank for that. I just didnt expecct that so soon I would be doing anything about it. My father had a "simple" procedure done Jan 20th that was anything but "simple" and after that if it could go wrong it went very wrong. He had spent 3 and 1/2 weeks in ICU & wasnt geting any better. I got the call & went back out to Florida last Sunday. My dad passed away Wednesday Feb 18th  and I was with him, holding on to him & talking to him til the very end. My heart & spirit hurt so much but I did what my dad had asked me to do. I am truly so grateful that my recovery had helped us repair our relationship & grow so much closer over the last few years. I made amends to my dad a couple of years ago & I have no regrets. I did not walk away from my dad & feel like I still had things to say. I knew how much he loved me & I know he knew how much I loved him. He told me that no matter what I ever did he always loved me & as a parent myself I know that is true. My faith & acceptance of God's will that I have learned thru NA has been such a comfort for me. I will miss the "old man" always & am grateful that I dont have to look back with questions, what if's, if only's. I can look at this with love & gratitude that my dad was proud of me & that we left nothing out there to regret. My dad was always there for me & it was an honor that I finally got to be there for him.