Tomorrow I celebrate my 34th birthday as well as 18 months sober..  This is my 3rd time around these rooms in 15 years..  I would always go out at a little over a year..  I can't point out exactly whats different this time, because its many things.. 

My drug of choice is ANYTHING to change the way I feel or think.. 

I truly believe that my Higher Power has been working in my life all along..  From when I was at my lowest of lows until now..  I'm stubborn, pigheaded, and egocentric..  When I had finally beaten myself down and lost EVERYTHING, I finally gave up control.. 

A little over a year and a half ago I was sittin in jail looking at a 16month prison sentence..  I had lost my daughter, my freedom, and most of my mind..  It was easy, I had nothing..  So I prayed for the first time from my heart..  And little by little, the miracles began to happen..  I'm not saying they weren't happening all along, but I know that for the first time, my eyes were opened to the love and the Power of God in my life..  Needless to say, I didn't go to prison.. 

Today, I have my daughter back..  I've reconnected with the rest of my family..  And I now own and operate a Recovery Store..  I want to say I'm proud of myself..  But I didn't do it by myself..  This program has saved my life..

The biggest gift I have received has been the gift of Faith..

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