I would like to share my experience with surrender and acceptence.

Some people in recovery have a hard time accepting and surrendering to the fact that they are an addict.   They fight it and fight it and fight it, until they are beatin in every way or dead!!

I knew I was an addict but in my first step I realized why I am an addict.

There is a thin line between being a casual drug user and having it be my every waking thought.  Once I crossed that line a steel wall was put up the size of the universe.  This wall blocks the thin line and makes it impossible for me to step back over into the "normal" side of life.  I have become an addict.  There are no doors in this wall and it goes on for infinity.

So, either I accept the fact that I am an addict and surrender to that fact or I go on til the bitter end, jails, institutions or death.   I chose to accept it and surrender to it because the fight was too beyond hard and there is no way I could win.

Recovery gives me the option of winning and that is what I choose to do.  I choose life today and a new way to life.

I hope this helps someone and if by chance it doesn't, well it worked for me.  That matters!!!

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