Seriously. Everytime I try something to better myself, I end up giving up...or doing a half-assed job. I'm going to an anad meeting tonight, but I haven't been in two weeks. Why?? because they interfere with my "schedule" I'm worried that if I don't see my boyfriend for a few days, he'll dump me. If I don't send enough time at home with Mom and Dad, they'll be mad at me. It doesn't really occur to me that maybe what's harming my relationships most is my debilitating addiction. Well, I guess it does cross my mind, but not for long enough to make an impact. They are REALLY helpful meetings and I love going and getting support from people in person who are just like me. I just hope I can keep myself going every week.

Anyway, sorry about the rant. ummmm, the self esteem book says that it's important to remember that I'm not the onoly one who has a problem. That other people, prbably most everyone I know, has a problem that is at least slightly similar to mine. So, I had to make a list of ten people I know and write about what I htink their problems could be. It really helped, actually, to think of people who I assume are living much richer lives tan me, are probably struggling in some way or another.

Well, I don't really have anything else to say.