Once at a meeting held in a church, I
saw a stained glass window on which
was written, "God Is Love." For
some reason, my mind transposed the
words into "Love Is God." Either
way is correct and true, I realized,
looking about me and becoming even
more concious of the spirit of love
and Power in the small meeting room.
I'll continue to seek out that love and
Power, following The Program as if
my life depended upon it - as indeed
it does. Does life to me today mean
living - in the active sense -
joyously and comfortably?
Today I pray
May I feel the spirit of love that gives our
prayers their energy. May I feel the
oneness in this room, the concentration of
love that gives the group its power. May I
feel the exemplary love of a Higher Power,
which our love echoes.
Today I will remember
Love is God.
This reading make me think of two particular things, which I think I have already written about. One, is when I was a young girl, I had a moment of clarity, in one of my religious education classes at the convent school I attended. In a flash, I said, "I know what God is - God is love.". I was frowned upon and told to READ YOU BIBLE! Whatever that meant!
The second thing is that, before I came to recovery, I was often on my knees begging God to take away my heart of stone, and give me one of flesh and blood; to please teach my heart how to love.
After a long, long journey through the valley of death, God brought me to the doors of AA, and pushed me firmly in. At some of the first meetings I went to, I heard people talking about feeling the love in the rooms. I heard what they said, and would think to myself, "Huh, I can't feel it - hogwash!" But I kept an open mind. I was desperate for help with my life, my addictions, and myself, so I just kept coming back. I got a sponsor quickly and started working the steps, QUICKLY.
Recently, at meetings, I am very much aware of the love in the rooms. Everything I ever asked God to help me with, He has provided for me. My heart is opening up and is beginning to love. In my life, I have joy and most important for me, I live COMFORTABLY, as in, I am mostly very much at peace.
Thank you for keeping me clean and sober today
Peace be with you all
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