The idea of God is different in every per-
son. The joy of my recovery, was to find
God within me.
- Angela L. Wozniak
The program teaches peace. Day by day, step by
step, we move closer to it. Each time we clearly are
touched by someone else, and each time we touch
another, carries us closer to a realization of God's
presence, in others, in ourselves, in all experiences.
The search for God is over, just as soon as we realize
the spirit is as close as our thoughts, our breath.
Coming to believe in a greater power brings such
relief to us in our daily struggles. And on occasion we
still fight for control to be all-powerful ourselves,
only to realize that the barriers we confront are of our
own making. We are on easy street, just as soon as we
choose to let God be our guide in all decisions, large
and small.
The program's greatest gift to us is relief from anxi-
ety, the anxiety that so often turned us to booze, or
pills, or candy. Relief is felt every time we let go of
the problem that's entrapped us and wait for the com-
fort and guidance God guarantees.
God's help is mine just as quickly as I fully avail
myself of it. I will let go of today's problems.
In all honesty, I can say that today that I have no problems. What a miracle for someone who's whole life was one big problem, filled only with anxiety, worries, fear and depression. I just went to my doctor for a check up on my ankle, which is healing well. I spent about half an hour with him, because he asked me how I am doing, and how I deal with frustrations in my life. My doctor knows me quite well, knows all about my addictions, was used to me coming to him with health issues always subsequent to my active addictions. Mostly, he provided me with tranquillizers to get me through alcohol withdrawals. I was able to say to him that I don't really have much frustration in my life, to deal with, these days (of course, some days are better than others - LIFE!). I ended up telling him about AA again, and NA, the twelve steps, this recovery site, my writing of daily blogs. He ended up by getting his copy of the Big Book out of the cupboard, saying that he would be reading through it again. He is not an alcoholic, but I know he is probably confronted with the heartbreaking and frustrating disease of addiction, often, in his daily work. I told him that I have heard that AA has a success rate of about 9-11%. He smiled and said that was a fantastic result compared to recovery rates without AA. I thought that was a very positive way of looking at it.
After my appointment, I went to the local market and bought supplies of office materials for work, and some Christmas decorations for the store, which my boss requested me to do. My boss, Mr S, is another one of those "angels" who has been placed in my life. He is a special person. A highly successful "CEO person", owning several large and lucrative enterprises. He has described himself as a people's person, and he is an enabler, having had many years experience with many different people, and places himself in a position of mentor to many. He truly cares about helping people to be successful in life. He has told me too, that he has a personal working relationship with his Higher Power, and that he could not imagine going through life without tapping into this Source. He told me that he loves God. He also mentioned that I am considered part of his family now - that whether they wanted it or not, that for him and his sons, I have entered into their lives and family.
Yesterday he came to the store, saying he had been thinking about me and my life, and that he wants to help me realize my potential. He suggested that I enroll myself in a computer course, to improve and widen my knowledge, stressing that it would be a good idea to think of my future, develop some skills, increase my earning potential, allow myself to be more successful and in doing so, secure my future happiness and peace of mind. I have always been scared of trying things, maybe due to fear of failure, and maybe also due to fear of the responsibility of success. I'm constantly asking God to help me, and am aware that God helps those who help themselves. My part is the effort of my footwork, God's part is the results of my efforts. So, I took what Mr S suggested with an open mind, knowing and feeling that this is a message from God.
I came home just now, and soon after, my telephone rang. It was a lady phoning about offers for computer courses. She asked me if I was interested in enrolling in a course at very reasonable rates. Usually I say no to people doing telephone marketing, but it seemed to me that this was, again, one of those "coincidences". I told her that I am interested, and in about two weeks, I will receive another call from someone, to tell me all about when, where, what, and how much. I think I'm going to be courageous and just go for it. I feel so good today. My life is opening up and I feel like a responsible adult woman today, instead of a wayward teenager.
I have been blessed with so much goodness in my life. This year has been the best year of my life. I have good people all around me. I am sober, I am healthy, I have a job and a home, I have a little money in the bank, I have peace of mind, I have joy and laughter, I KNOW that I am loved DEEPLY. I love God, and I am happy to be ALIVE.
Thank you for keeping me clean and sober today
Peace be with you all
Tags: Being Open To Possibilities
