I desire to stop participating in my addictions!  When I participate in my addictions, there is enmity toward God and those I love.  Enmity means, "hatred toward, hostility to, or a state of opposition."  I know it is the power by which Satan wishes to reign over me.  I also know that pride is competetive in nature and that my will in competition to God's will allows desires, appetities, and passions to go unbridled. 

  I know I must be stripped of pride to become clean.  Pride and honesty cannot coexist.  Pride is an illusion and is an essential element of addiction.  Pride distorts the truth about things as they are, as they have been, and as they will be.  It is a major obstacle to recovery.

  I sometimes feel encompassed or trapped.  I usually feel this way in the midst of overwhelming responsibilities.  Sometimes, I just want the stimulation, or the escape.  I note that when I'm lonely, tired, or feeling pain that I am in a weakened state and give-in to my addiction.  I know that I must place my trust in God!!!

    Be still; know that He is God.

   One day at a time.

    Pray sincerely.

    Immerse myself in scripture study.

    Perform service; do it out of love.

    Keep all the commandments.

    Keep a blog or journal; write it down.

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