My mind has been on overload these past few days in my attempts to process some of the things I've been reading as well as the deep thoughts behind them. To me, the concept is exciting, even exhilerating... Stuff that is difficult to put into words, yet it is so simple and hard to wrap my head around at the same time. And I am deeply humbled by God's knowledge and wisdom - in comparision to my arrogance of what I think I know...

For anyone who may have read my blog on Creation is Thought, then you'll get the gist of what I am attempting to convey here... However, I must warn you that the following is rather deep and if you don't like to think too much, you may end up giving yourself a headache.

"Your life is a mirror of the dominant thoughts you think." - The Secret

There are some philosophical concepts I've found in the Law of Attraction to be true.

My dominant thoughts are found within the patterns I have noticed in my relationships - the self-perceived (and limiting) beliefs of feeling worthless, unloved and an utter failure. Those beliefs also hold fear of rejection, abandonment, and moreover, the fear of being alone. Crap that goes back to my earliest memories that grew more intense and distorted as I got older.

Whether conscious or unconscious, I've invested years of emotional engery into that negative and particularly self-damaging (as well as self-sabatoge), that I have created my own self-fulfilling prophecy.

Every time it happens, I've grown more disillusioned and reinforcing those beliefs. Along the lines of, "it keeps happening, so it must be true".

The Bible implies that there is no limit with faith.

Jesus walked on water, turned water into wine, fed multitudes with a few loaves of bread and fish, healed the sick, raised the dead, and rose from the dead Himself ... and often bemoaned to His deciples, "have you no faith?"

In the book, The Nature of Personal Reality by Jane Roberts, a channeled personality named Seth states, "Your beliefs form your reality, your body and its condition, your personal relationships, your environment, and en masse your civilization and world.

"Your beliefs automatically attract the appropriate emotions. They reinforce themselves through imagination; ... Imagination and feeling follow your beliefs. It is not the other way around."

It goes on to emphasise: "...as long as you hold onto that conscious belief you will experience it as reality."

I bring these concepts up here because I have noticed that as my negative perceptions about myself have begun to change, so too has my perception of the world around me.

"Although all men have a common destiny, each individual also has to work out his personal salvation for himself... We can help one another find the meaning of life... But in the last analysis, each is responsible for finding himself." - Thomas Merton, No Man Is an Island

How many of us in recovery have looked deeply within ourselves and harbored some kind of negative idea or belief of who we 'thought' we are, and in our own way, have fought against the very thing we manifested in the first place? As a codependent, I can say that this has been a life issue for me and it makes much sense as to how I have made my life unmanagable by repeatedly resisting and trying to control what I didn't want, yet that is what I created in the first place...

Life isn't without a sense of irony, is it?

I'd like to share a few more sentances from Roberts' book to offer a better understanding: "Some of your beliefs originated in your childhood, but you are not at their mercy unless you believe that you are. Because your imagination follows your beliefs, you can find yourself within a vicious circle in which you consciously paint pictures in your mind that reinforce 'negative' aspects in your life.

"The imaginative events generate appropriate emotions, which automatically bring about hormonal changes in your body or affect your behavior with others, or cause you to interpret events always in the light of your beliefs. And so daily experience will seem to justify what you believe more and more.

"The only way out of it is to become aware of your beliefs, aware of your own conscious thought, and to change your beliefs so that you bring them more in line of with kind of reality you want to experience."

It is fascinating to me that I have already been experiencing this without having realized it. And to me, it gives a new meaning to Let Go and Let God. During my recovery, I find things go more smoothly when I examine my feelings (emotions), fears (beliefs) and behaviors honestly. However, the moment I start to analyze another person's motives or become blaming of them, my day goes to hell.

The Steps, Slogans, Promises and Traditions are a brilliantly inspired spiritual tool that aligns itself neatly with religion (Christianity in particular), philosophy, and has also bridged itself with quantum physics in recent decades. IMHO, psychology has yet to catch up to this remarkable phoenomenon when it stops ignoring a realm that science can't tangibly prove yet.

"Free your mind." "Unlearn what you have learned." ... It's strange to be seeing such philosophical quotes to me now...even when I have heard such philosophies countless times before ('because they've always been there'... waiting for me to grasp it's potential).

It's hard for me to wrap my head around like I said. Yet it is also me not letting go of limiting beliefs I've carried around - thinking I 'know' with my own self-perceptions. Perhaps the purpose is to teach me to have faith, beyond those preconceived ideas. Perhaps I'm becoming more open to it...because I'm 'coming to believe', only I'm still clinging to limited beliefs that keep me from letting go.

Still... I am blown away by it all. God is truely awesome!