It's been nearly a month, before everything started going to hell. Going to hell in my mind anyway...
During that month, I've managed to isolate my friends (mainly you guys) because I was too busy beating myself up for my relapse.
So now it's time to pick myself by the proverbial balls (that would seem painful if I actually had some), get back in the saddle and not give up!!
The other night I was going over how badly I regressed from any of the progress I had made, asking myself what it is that I'm wanting and needing to do for myself.
That's when I heard a voice inside my mind say, "Quit judging me."
At that moment, I was hit with the realization just how much of a judgmental person I truely am. Not just in judging others, but I'm exceptionally worse in judging myself.
And that is what I've been doing to myself for backsliding.
Only problem is I seem to be unable to stop banging the gavel at myself, which has me at a loss...
Does anyone have/have had the same issue and can offer some sage advice and experiences in dealing with this issue? I would appreciate any suggestions!
Tags: Frustrated
