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Abstracted Relapse
Posted On: 10/12/2007 15:46:38
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I barely socialize anymore.
Am I over-tired? No. More like burned out.
Sometimes I miss throwing random thoughts into the winds of cyberspace.
Sometimes I miss the interaction with faceless people I will never meet.
Sometimes I miss apathy staring back at me in the mirror.
Sometimes I miss the witless banter of the weirdo who scares people.
I have no idea which way is "up" because I cannot see when my head is stuck up my ass.
I am slow at grasping the lesson when I keep analyzing things to death.
And when I do, I find it easier to intellectualize what I've learned rather than apply it to my life.
My focus is easily sidetracked by the myriad circumstances of life that I have no control over.
It is easier to cope by using stinking thinking than faith.
And sometimes it gets difficult to discern said faith with wishful thinking.
I am an overprotective mother hen who can't lay an egg.
And doesn't always take my own medicine when I should.
I want something I cannot have, but I have no idea what it is I even want.
If I squint hard enough, sometimes I think I can see the forest through the trees.
I think.
The only thing I am certain of is that the fifth element of the universe is...
God is Love.
Tags: Reflective
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