I wanted to say thank you...

Thank you God for helping my mother through her medical crisis.
Thank you God for helping me through the crisis I've created in my head.
Thank you God for ... everything.

And thank you all for the patience and support you've given me. You have no idea how much that means...

I simply had no idea when dealing with codependency would become more difficult when you're faced with the possibility of losing a loved one, namely a parent, would be. As much as I believe things happen for a reason, if this was a "test" of my progression, then I failed miserably.

Which is why I'm still taking this down time to recollect myself - my mind, my emotions, and most importantly...my faith.

This experience messed me up more than I imagined... To the point where I'm tossing around the idea of starting steps 1 and 2 over, because I don't feel like I'm anywhere near ready for step 3.

*sigh*

Tags: Tired