I am responsible - something I've been thinking on. Now, most times thinking about things isn't a good thing for me - it gets me in all kinds of trouble. But since I started thinking about this, it's been bugging me to no end.

     The original words were written by Al S. in 1965: "I am responsible. When anyone, anywhere, reaches out for help, I want the hand of A.A. always to be there. And for that: I am responsible." A serious statement of commitment.

     But what does it mean to me?

     The telling of things that I have done or have happened to me as a result of my own insanity for others to read and possibly avoid, I am able to again release that singular moment of insanity, guilt and shame.

     By relating things I have done to maintain my physical or improve my emotional sobriety, I possibly give others an edge on theirs. I also reinforce the positive things I do.

     By giving aid and comfort to one who is hurting - be it self inflicted or otherwise, I thus distance myself even further from the automaton that felt nothing for anyone. I am able to make myself more human.

     By responding with what little I can to the innocents whom have been harmed by this insanity of addiction, I am able to possibly give them some understanding and relief. In addition I make a small step in the amends to those I have harmed that I can not make a direct amend to.

      All this being said, there is a common thread in it that is worth passing on: It often does me as much good as the person I am responding to offer up my experience, strength and hope. Albeit what I say is not often a quote from the BB or other reference, but only the musings of a person young in sobriety.

     I have heard others say - I only have 1 month, 6 months, 2 years - what can I offer? The story of your struggles and victories speaks loud and clear to one crying out for help. What you say or affirm may be the one thing that they need.

     Today I am sober and alive by the Grace of God, the people in my life and the steps I work. Those people gave me the start on this using their personal experience, strength and hope. Many people here have helped me grow through theirs. The very least I can do is provide the same for others.

     "I am responsible. When anyone, anywhere, reaches out for help, I want the hand of A.A. always to be there. And for that: I am responsible." A serious statement of commitment.

But what does it mean to you?

Dennis