So often in prior times I b*tched about everything - good or bad. When something good happened, it either wasn't good enough or I expected a calamity to make up for it. Sure enough it usually did. The I could whine about something bad

    Looking back - I find that all those times were usually caused by me. I was sabotaging my own happiness. Instead of accepting the small good things, I'd try to make them bigger and better - and ended up ruining them. Not exactly a picture of smart, huh?

     I've managed to change that a bit - just progress, not perfection. Now I try to find the good in almost anything. And when I do (which is more often that I'd of thought), I cherish it.

     Quite often of late the good has been some bit of knowledge about myself I didn't see or something I have to change within me to make me a more complete person. The situations that lead to these little revelations are not always "good" or "nice". But the results (if I accept them) lead me further on the path I chose to take. 

     Bad is still pretty awful, sadness and pain still hurt like h*ll. But I find if I can use them as learning experiences, I can grow just a little more. And that is a VERY good thing for me....

Dennis

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