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Nothing, nothing at all?
Posted On: 01/20/2008 08:18:22

     We got up yesterday, set about our daily routine, and guess what? Nothing, nada, zip, none. The whole day - like all dressed up and nowhere to go. I wandered around aimlessly, both physically and mentally (now that's REAL smart) wondering what the h*ll is going on. Went to a meeting - even it was ho-hum. Spun up the lathe and made a little sawdust. Absolutely nothing clicked. I was bored senseless.

     On January 19th,2008 absolutely nothing happened in my life.

     No "drama", no 15 seconds of fame, no letter from the IRS saying they are going to audit me, no calls from on of my sons saying the sky is falling, Nothing...

     Well not quite. I kissed my wife. I talked to an old friend on the phone, I read, did some odds and ends from work. I prayed and meditated.

     What is it about my mind that says "gimme drama - make me feel important and involved"?

God -

      Grant me the Serenity to accept the things I SHOULD NOT change -

     Boring is good too, you know?

Dennis 

    

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02/12/2008 15:05:33

It took me a while to realize that my life wasn't getting boring - it was getting orderly. As alcohol and drug addicts, we are used to chaos. That in and of itself was an addiction to me.

It takes time to get used to doing the right thing, or the next right thing, and as time goes by life becomes less and less troublesome. Being crisis free doesn't mean our lives have to be excitment free.

I have made it one of my goals to seek out and do what excites me and makes me happy. It can be hard when you are going through a job change, but it is possible. When I get bored I try to work on AA fellowship...going for coffee after a meeting, playing cards, going to workshops.



01/21/2008 03:10:19
lol... Never thought of it quite that way before, but I can definitely see the serenity when I'm not making things all about me.


01/21/2008 00:20:22

i don't know there always seems to be some type of drama going on , some impending situation. and know matter how much i say " man, i wish i could just kick back relax and do nothing today", when that oppurtunity appears ( rare as it is) i just don't feel comfortable.

i like jd's quote. i guess Gods still molding me. i'm a work in progress.



01/20/2008 18:10:47

i hope you begin to enjoy just being still!  that takes discipline and practice, like recovery.

this is a meditative quote that i've picked up in recovery:

Be still and know that I am God.

Be still and know that I am.

Be still and know.

Be still.

Be..........peace Dennis.  ;)

 

 




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