Ok, I am sorted now.  Needs met and back on track.  Had some good quality time with my sponsor too which cleared the air a bit and helped him to see where I was. 

My presentation went well and was a good focus for the group in that it made some people think about thier own relationships with God as higher power.  I was pleased about that.  I'm just discovering how much joy there is in serving the group.

Had a good night out on Friday with my husband and two sons at the youngest ones girlfriend's 18th birthday party.  The resulting hangover (doesn't take much to produce one at my age) has made me question somewhat the way I use alcohol (all you alcoholics now going 'aha') and why I need it to lower my inhibitions enough to enjoy myself. 

I have also committed myself to a bit of an exile and promised my husband I would skip the meeting this week to spend some time with him. Have mixed feeling about that one, but sometimes recovery is as much of an escape from the realities of my life and intimacy with my family as acting out is.  How I will feel about that come Thursday night, we will see.

And I still have not got around to any step 4 work, it will come. Taking that a day at a time.  Cara

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