I suppose I could add sad and lonely to that.  I'm sitting all alone at my computer and I am sure I could read all the messages you guys have sent me if I hadn't accidently deleted them earlier today at work.  I should be doing something useful (like all the ironing I have to do) but I'm at that stage where I just cannot be bothered.  I want to connect and it's only a matter of time before I start to sexualise that.  This is the time I should pick up the phone but right now there is nobody I can ring.

I have been trying to 12th step someone this week.  I can see why it is sensible to wait till you get there, it's not easy.  He is reluctant to commit to attending meetings and still a little in denial about his addiction, I feel I want to do it for him but I know that is not right.  All I can do is encourage and share my own experience.  He has to be willing to enter recovery, I know I might just be the first straw, not the last one.  Well I can pray.

Guess the holiday is well and truly over.

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