Well it seems my aborted and forbidden relationship is not over yet.  When he went off on holiday with his family I assumed that good sense would prevail and that when he returned he would leave me alone.  He has only been back a day and I got a text.  Now most women would find that downright creepy but you know there is still a part of me that wants to play and takes this attention as the besy compliment in the world.
The text got deleted, I felt very uncharitable doing it because it was just a request to pass on his apologies for not making the meeting this week but I know that is how it starts and I really don't want to hear how he has been thinking of me all the time he was away.
So instead of texting him I texed my sponsor who told me how good I was for sticking to my boundaries.
I guess I'd hoped the whole thing had blown over.  Just gotta stick to my guns.  I said I would be his friend and helper ONLY AT MEETINGS and not outside of that.  Maybe after today  he will get the message.  I hope so because I was left with a sense of loss today, yeah I know the only thing I am going to lose here is my sanity and my sobriety.  Well nobody said it was easy.
I'm looking forward to the meeting this week, because I need it and he won't be there.  I have another months grace while he is working too far away to make the journey.  My Higher Power knows what I need.  And just to show I care I will ask some of the other guys to give him a ring as he can't get to meetings.  He'd be far better off texting or ringing them for support.  Maybe I can divert the texts.  That would shock him. 
I guess I am not the first to have this problem or the last. Cara