Well I hope everyone likes my new picture.  I was going to have a rainbow but I couldn't get it to change.  I wanted something more positive and I really love rainbows, I never get tired of them.  But the eagle thing is also something that comes up a lot.  I love any birds of prey, especially the little falcons and kestrels that I see so often hovering above fields here when I am driving.  For some reason they cheer me up and give me hope.  And that verse from Isaiah comes up again and again in my life, someone who does not know me at all prophesied it over me recently.

I think it is a good picture of the way I want to live, soaring high with the wind of the Spirit supporting me, resting completely by faith in the invisible hands of God.  It rarely feels that good and I am grounded far too often but now and again I feel the wind in my feathers, that picture gives me hope.

I feel those thermals lifting me right now, I have been a bit down recently but I think that was because I was relying too much on my own strength and not listening to God.  I learn - but slowly.

 My challenge at the moment is to learn to love, not only those who love me and those I find easy but the other more unlovely ones.  It's hard for me to love and trust those close to me, I have been separated so long from others, cut off in my own self-sufficiency and that is where I retreat when I feel threatened.  Loving is dangerous but exciting, can I do it? Can I even understand what love is? A step at a time perhaps. Cara