I guess it is time I got back to this. It seems that suddenly after only a year in recovery I am one of the experienced ones around here. We have had a lot of newcomers recently in our SA group who have attended for a while and then dropped out. Those of us who have been around for a while have done all we can to help but it just seems that people get to a certain point then they disappear. Is it because they find recovery too difficult, or is there something missing? I suppose as with everything else this is something I need to leave in God's hands, after all He is looking after them and it may be that they will return to recovery later when they are ready to. We are all part of a team really and the little bit we do may be the part that paves the way for others. I might paraphrase 1 Corinthians 3:5-7
What, after all, is Cara? And what is (add your own name here)? Only servants, through whom you came to believe—as the Lord has assigned to each his task. I planted the seed, (someone else) watered it, but God made it grow. So neither he who plants nor he who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow.
This week I have been strangely asexual, sadly this is part of my addiction and is just as unhealthy as being oversexed. It is as though my body and mind say 'enough already' and shut down on it altogether to give me a break. Problem is, the longer this goes on the greater will be the swing back.
I had a strange experience last night. This time of year in the UK we have bonfire parties to celebrate the fact that Guy Fawkes did not blow the Houses of Parliament up on 5 November 1605. A plot that was hatched fairly near to where I live actually. I was at one last night and the stick from one of the rockets came down and hit me in the mouth with some force. So I have a badly split and swollen lip. It could have been worse, it might have got me in the eye or it might have been one of the children present who got hurt. As it was I had to sit out the party inside with a bag of frozen peas and a glass of Southern Comfort (medicinal- for the shock!).
Say what you like about Health and Safety with fireworks, there is no accounting for life. These things happen, right out of the blue and you just don't know what is coming next. More reason to do good in this life while we still have it? More reason to get recovery sorted so we can participate in life while we have it? More reason to trust God to guide us because only He knows the future? Amen to that.
