It keeps coming up, I try to ignore it but then I have been trying to escape from this for 25 years.  Sooner or later I am going to have to face the problems in my marriage.

And it is not even that it has 'Gone' wrong, I do believe it has been wrong since the first day or even before that so it is not a matter of returning to what I had. It is a case of wondering if I can create something out of the mess of lies and deception and misunderstanding that I have helped create and avoided curing.

it seems too big a mountain to climb at the moment but the more I recover and lose my old 'coping stategies' of escapist fantasy and outside relationships the more it becomes clear tht I cannot continue as I have.

Well HP what are WE going to do about it? Cara

Tags: Reflective