It has been a bit of a week, right in the middle of it my new team leader got killed crosing the road.  She was in her mid 50's with plenty of life left in her and was a very popular person.  We were all trying to establish a new section at work and still trying to establish the perameters of the job we would be doing.  Everything was still very up in the air with plenty of decisions to be made and she was coping admirably with that but it was stressful for all of us.  It is a shame that she won't see that come to fruition and I am concerned that the person who is replacing her will not find it easy to step into her shoes.

Last week I was just numb but I am almost expecting my addiction to take advantage of the situation.  So far all that has turned up is a tendency to worry and allow things to get on top of me.  I have realised and I am turning those worries and concerns over to God and He is upholding me but I do feel a little under par.

As far as my progress through the steps is concerned I think I am reaching the limit on character defects for my step four inventory.  Not that I think that there are no others, rather I just want to stop and say that is it, enough already!

I might try to think of a few more attributes to balance it out but to do that I might have to ask some other people, with examples because I know my sponsor won't let me get away with anything I cannot justify.  Hmmm.

Tags: Reflective