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Posted On: 04/14/2009 23:15:30

Was just listening to the first song on my playlist... Kenny Chesney's "That's Why I'm Here". It's in my opinion a wonderful song, I've listened to it I don't know how many times this afternoon. It makes me think of my youngest brother Mike who is currently sitting in jail on a felony assault and battery charge for beating the s**t out of our other brother Rick last week. Mike is, like most all humans, a creature of habit. He however, like those of us on this site turned simple habit into horrifying addiction. He is afflicted with a serious case of the poor me's, compounded by the delusion that it's everyone else's fault. Rick doesn't even drink, I think he tried pot once in his teens and didn't like it. His addiction is people pleasing. He has turned himself into a mobile doormat, mostly for Mike to stomp on, lie to, and steal from. Ever since they were little kids Mike has been using and abusing him, but like an abused puppy Rick has always come running right back with his tail wagging and a gleam of hope in his eyes. I think Mike finally managed to beat the hope out of him. Myself, I would like to give Mike the opportunity to try it on me, but I know he never would. Rick came back from Desert Storm messed up physically and mentally, he has a steel plate, titanium rods and a bunch of screws holding his back together. Mike kicked him right where he knew the surgery had taken place. Needless to say Rick was in the hospital for a while. All this because Rick borrowed his truck to take our Mother to a doctors appointment and to do some shopping, and Mike ran out of beer and had no way to go get anymore. Rick wouldn't have had to borrow Mike's truck if it weren't for the fact that Mike ruined Rick's car repairing things that didn't need repaired while he was tweaking. I've tried numerous times to get him to try NA, or AA. But he just say's "those people are a bunch of cry baby's". Well I've visited him in jail before so I know who's crying now. As wrong as it is, I'd like to go bail him out and provoke him into taking a swing at me. As strange as it is, at the same time, I still wish I could help him even though I know I can't. Even our mother has finally given up on him and she's about the most forgiving person I've ever met, with maybe the exception of my brother Rick. Anyway, if you've never heard the song, "That's Why I'm Here", take a minute and listen to it. It is, as I said the first song on my playlist. Best of wishes to all of you. Bob 



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From: KeithB
04/16/2009 10:35:42

the thought- "POWERLESS" over people, places and things!



From: Philip
04/15/2009 08:33:22

When I am on your page. I have surround sound on my computer. So my wife can always hear the song on your page and she will yell out to me LEAVE that on. Oh! Oh!I also have family in active addiction.and I have learned in a very painful way. That the closer I am to someone. The less I can seem to be of assistance to them.



From: DennisS
04/15/2009 07:11:01

Bob -


     It's hard. But of all people we know the best what it takes to open that door and walk in the rooms. I'll echo Angela. I pray he hits a bottom hard enough that the only way is up...


Hugs,


Dennis




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