We always speak of God moving in mysterious ways in our lives. Some times though, it helps to stop and listen.
But what I have found, is God will allow things to happen in our lives, that will cause us to trust Him more. Even though we may not see the outcome at first.
So, I'd suggest that game spoken about in Pollyanna: The Glade Game. Not easy some times, but it does work.
May you see Gods directions in your times of need. Virgil
Sweetie, I haven't been here much lately. I hope you are still around. My heart goes out to you...you are too precious to God! I know, we think we just can't take anymore! I'm so sorry I haven't been there for you! If I'm not here...I'm on facebook where there's lots of support too. I'm Nancy West...same picture. So many people from this site have joined together there as well. Ill make sure to introduse you to all the awesome people that are here too! My love and prayers are always with you ok? I just got addicted to FB, and feel like crap for not returning to this awesome site for far too long. Sweetie, this is amazing place to be...my recovery page! I wish you a wonderful New Year, and believe in my heart, we are much stronger than we can ever imagin! God bless you with amazing wonders for this year and all those to come! Happy 2011!!!
Merry Christmas to everyone. Though this is the first Christmas I haven't had the DESIRE to even decorate my house, cook or anything.. and the tree still sits in the box by my window...
I even remember last year, when I decorated my beautiful tree in golds, inspirational hanging words of 'hope, love, joy, believe' and had apple cider in the slow cooker, with cinnamon permeating the home and then looked over at my husband and he was telling some girl online that there was 'no christmas spirit' here.. I was shocked!!!! How could he lie like that? Of course, he got mad that I saw what he wrote... an I was totally hurt.. but still went out and bought him some hot chocolate and his favorite .. flavored popcorns... thought that would make him happy. Well, it didn't . I gave and gave and gave. It was useless, wasn't it. Gave pearls to swine.
This Christmas, I know there is a lot to be grateful for. Not gifts that can gather dust, but true gifts of the soul.
I haven't bought one single gift, because all my money went to buy a car for me and my disabled son. Now that it has caught fire... something else must be coming.. for I do NOT believe that Goodness/God leaves a void.
My husband. yes i'm still married.. yet he's acting out.. .meeting girls and doing.... forget it.. i'm not thinking about it... but... he doesn't love me.. or he wouldn't do those things and leave me here abandoned, destitute.
This is why having a car was so important to help me go on by myself, to work, go back into nursng.
That is a tough pill to swallow. Feeling unloved, unwanted at this time of year. Not even a phone call on my birthday Dec 9th from him.
Especially at this time and his leaving right before the holidays has really caused severe emotional distress in my body, mind and soul, but I am recovering...
I have to. There is no other way to proceed and I am a strong person, with a lot of talents and I must move on.
Empty.
I am full of love for people, I give to people and that's what I will do this Christmas.. .visit hospitals, nursing homes... now.. I don't even have a car to do that.. but I'll try to ask someone for a ride.. or heck.. if it's not too cold... I'll ride a bicycle!
Giving to others really makes me feel good.. .to see the smiles on their faces and to sing them a song... why that puts joy in my life.
Is that being Co-dependent? To want to make others happy? No wonder I liked working as a nurse so much.
Well, I'm not sad about not have a single give to give my children, or grandchildren. They understand. I will just celebrate Christmas on another month.... We have a heater, a warm, beautiful home and nice things. We have all we need. I need to believe that~
It doesn't seem like Christmas and this is the the most unusual (i won't say worst) for in every cloud there is a silver lining.
Off to do my yoga meditations and think "love to all"~ and not just think it, . but ACT in all my actions..... may LOVE (God) be the guiding force and let not selfishness motivate me, but as God/Christ/Buddha and all other sages suggest: BE kind. Show Love to all. Be selfless.
Merry Christmas 2010~ a most unusual season for me and may this be YOUR best Christmas yet~
I found my father passed away in his home on December 4 2007, I lost my mother 2 months earlier on September 29 2007 to cancer, I found peace in the meaning of Christmas not in the commercialism or in past Christmas's even though the past Christmas's were loving and wonderful with my parents the pain of losing them was far greater then the memories of happiness. I realized Christmas isn't about me it is about celebrating the birth of the man who gave his life for my eternal peace. I will keep you in prayers and I wish for you a safe peaceful Christmas.
I have had an unusual several months and it is becoming different. I LET GO... ok GOD!!!
My second car in 5 months caught fire. What makes this especially bad, is that in August I tripped , had injuries to my mouth, teeth and my husband.. and I am still married.. but he moved to Cali after I caught him doing the 'cybersex/cam/chat' with another woman again.
He has said he 'needs' these women in his life and the last 3 years of our 12 year relationship have been riddled with him and other women. Let me clarify that he never had to 'want' for sex or anything from me.
I have been devastated by his claims of falling in love with 3 women in the last 3 months and now will be meeting one of them over New Years.. and staying with her.. while he is still married to ME!! Everyone says let it go.... I need to and having lots of grief and sadness. I have become more spiritual and meditate and do yoga, total gym but most of all.. I love to sing and sing on singsnap, it's an online karaoke site.
~Merry Christmas Friends and Family~ my song to you~
like the music on your page~ Perhaps cause i'm going through a painful separation/divorce.
Tyvm I am sorry you are having to go through you're divorce I will keep you in my prayers and I hope you can find peace and serenity in this time of trouble, music has gotten me through some tough times too.
