First Happy Mother's Day to all moms out there.  I am looking forward to a nice relaxing day at home.
I had a wonderful dinner with my mom tonight.  She and I hardly ever do anything alone anymore.  So, she, my son and I went out to eat.  We had a really nice time.  I was able to reflect on why she is so important to me.  Not that I do not know this all the time, but I do not sit and think about it much.  She does not give herself nearly enough credit.  And I suppose outwardly I do not give her enough credit either. I tend to hold lots in.  And I know my other siblings do not show their appriciation enough, but they are also still young and may not have come to realize all she has done and is.  Through good times and bad, she was always the best mom we could have had.  I watch her struggle now with phsical ailments, which lead to emotional chains.  I think sometimes we kids need to reach out more and just say, hey thankyou.  I would not be who I am today without her.  I am pretty happy with who I am, and most the credit goes to her.  She has taught me lessons in life, filled me with the strong morals I have today, helped me see what life really is, helped me to laugh when I thought I could not, and so on.  She is not just my mom, but my best friend.  I know lots of people say do not be friends with your kids.  I disagree.  Most of my friends would never have, nor would even now, beable to talk to their moms about evrything.  And I mean anything!  There is no topic I can not talk to her about and never was.  Even as a teen in my wilder years.  I know the story well how when she was pregnant with me(unwed), she was urged to put me up for adoption.  Upon seeing me, she was able to make the final decision, that no adoption.  There were times in my anti parent years, I wondered what it might have been like if I had been.  How different would things have been?  I am so greatful that she chose to keep me even in the face of not knowing what was to be.  We have been through a lot together, and even the hardest of times, I never stopped looking up to her.  She does not really know this, I am sure.  Like I said I suck at the showing of emotion.  Working on that.  But anyway, I am just very happy to have the mom I have.  And thanked God on my ride home tonight for her.

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 I am trying to keep my spirits high, and so far today I have been successful.  Crossing fingers to keep it that way.  I got in an accident Thurs.  Nothing horrible, but I did get whiplash, and let me tell you it sux!!!  I have always thought when I heard of others having it, it couldn't be too bad.  Well remind me to keep my judgemental thoughts at bay.  Sure it could be worse, but still ouch!!!  So I am off work for a week(I drive for a living and well kinda difficult with neck issues, plus it happened on the job).  I do not do well stuck at home.  The key work is stuck.  The fact that I have to be is killing me.  If it was a choice I would want to be home, but it really is not a choice.  See how my brain works.  Must have control issues hee hee.  But I do plan to get out and go to more meetings then I get to in a normal week, so there is a plus. 
Other then that, I am just so excited to have found this site.  I love it!!!

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