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What a month! I can't believe I haven't been on for a month now. Shame on me!!! So much has happened this past month. Good thing about it is, nothing bad has happened (knock on wood). I've been discharged from outpatient rehab/counseling. Woohoo! I now have 9 months sobriety. Another Woohoo! My cruise to KeyWest/Nassau is a month away. Again...Woohoo! It's been a year since I got my freedom (from ex-boyfriend) and renewed lease on my apartment. Woohoo! OK..enough of the woohoo's...WooHoo!!! I could go on and on, but I just thought I give highlights on the important and possitive events in my life. There's probably many more I forgot to mention, but I can't put down everything at once. You won't come back to check my page out. WooHoo!
Hugs and Kisses!
It was such a beautiful day out this past Friday, so I decided to take a drive up north to Penns Cave. Taking the boat tour through the caverns brought back alot of memories of my childhood years. My brothers, sister and I use to explore caves around our homestead. These caves were not open to public, and we would have been in a heck of trouble if caught...lol. But what do you expect from locals. Anyhow, when I was touring the Penns Cave caverns the memories started pouring in and I couldn't wait to get home to find the pictures we had taken during those good old days of being an explorer. I scanned those pictures and will be loading into my gallery. I remember, acting like cavemen and surely enough, found a picture of us acting silly. I was probably about 13 years old or so. My sister and oldest brother never went back to those caves, but about 5 years later, my other brother and I did with two friends. My brother and I went down a slope in one of the caves. It must have been about 12 feet down or so. We couldn't get back out because it was too slippery. Make matters worse, the lantern went out. Ran out of fuel. Total darkness..pitch black. My friends high tailed it out of there to go back to their home to get some rope. Those 2 hours waiting seemed like forever. Thank goodness the rope worked. My brother never went back and I moved out of the area. My friends did go back to various caves, but never went in that particular cave. Later, I tried to find the cave again, but couldn't remember. I wouldn't have gone back into that hole again..never. Not in a million years...lol
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Hectic
Posted On 08/30/2008 20:09:12
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Well the week is coming to a close and it's been a hectic one at that. I haven't had much time to hardly be home with my cat or even log onto my favorite site. Not sure why this has been a crazy week, but just has been. Just seemed like I was running here and there alot this week.
Gonna go to a big shing dig here tomorrow. It's the yearly Kipona in Harrisburg. First time going; I think it'll be a blast.
Thanks everyone for the welcomes, hello's and "how you been's". Have a wonderful Sunday and a safe Labor Day holiday!
Oh..added a couple more pics of my little darling (HA!).
Sharon 
Well, it's been 1 year since I mentally broke free from the emotionally abusive relationship I had with my ex-boyfriend. I told him one evening in early August to take his checkbook and go to #$%!@. I knew then, it was time. I had to make a change. I began searching for a new place to live that was closer to my work and getting paperwork in line to sell some property to my ex-boyfriend that I foolishly purchased half with him in 2002. I didn't want to sell, but it was the only way of getting out and starting over. 12 year relationship down the tubes. Worse of it is, I should have left sooner, about 3 or 4 years, as my best friend would say. She was right. During the relationship is when I began drinking every day. I remember exactly how it started. In the beginning, he worked 2nd shift, while I worked 1st shift. I didn't drink during the week. Only a few beers on Friday/Saturday nights. NICE. But, when he went on 1st shift, that's when things started going down hill. He would drink beer every evening while we worked around the house; and that's all we ever did was work around the house. All work and no play, every day. Next thing I knew, I was drinking every evening too. You know, do what he's does and likes, things will get better. WRONG! Needlesstosay, it didn't get better, but worse. But this time, I was drinking heavily every day. I even found out after I decided to leave him that he was cheating on me. That was the last painful straw. That just about broke me.
My 1 year of moving into my new place is not here yet; but close. I moved into my new place on Sept 27 2007. A new beginning; a new life. My best friend has forbade me to date for 1 year..ha! ha!. But..I agree. This past year, I have worked on "me"; finding out who "me" is and what "me" wants and likes to do. I've done too much for everyone else for too many years. It's my turn.
My first big test of strength is coming up tomorrow evening. I'm planning on going to a singles dance at an Elks Club. Lots of alcohol around. I already know to order a club soda with lime or lemon. Don't know what it tastes like, but I'm about to find out. If it gets too tempting, I'll leave. Please keep me in your prayers to give me the strength I need.
God...
Grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. --Amen
Have a wonderful evening!
Sharon
I came across this poem tonight and thought I share it with you. You may have seen it before; but I haven't. It truly made me think about myself.
Sharon
Desiderata
Go placidly amid the noise and the haste, and remember what peace there may be in silence. As far as possible without surrender be on good terms with all persons. Speak your truth quietly and clearly; and listen to others, even to the dull and the ignorant, they too have their story. Avoid loud and aggressive persons, they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others, you may become vain or bitter; for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself. Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans. Keep interested in your own career, however humble; it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs, for the world is full of trickery. But let not this blind you to what virtue there is; many persons strive for high ideals, and everywhere life is full of heroism. Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection. Neither be cynical about love; for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment it is as perennial as the grass. Take kindly the counsel of the years, gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness. Beyond a wholesome discipline, be gentle with yourself. You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. And whether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should. Therefore, be at peace with God, whatever you conceive Him to be. And whatever your labors and aspirations in the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams; it is still a beautiful world. Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.
--- Max Ehrmann, 1927
How does one feel about the recovery chips? Some may never announce their accomplishment to receive a recovery chip. Some may toss them aside with little thought. Some may cherish them in the beginning, but eventually they become lost or thrown away. Some may cherish them as if they were gold and hold onto them forever. I for one, would like to think I will cherish them and keep forever. For these simple little chips mean a gigantic step in my recovery and my new life. Every day, I pick them up and look at them. They remind me of my disease and how much I have progressed. They are my tokens of recovery and life. It's the greatest feeling to be able to share my accomplishments among my fellowship friends. To actually be proud of myself, knowing it will only get better as time goes on.
An older lady gets pulled over for speeding... Older Woman: Is there a problem, Officer? Officer: Ma'am, you were speeding.
Older Woman: Oh, I see.
Officer: Can I see your license please?
Older Woman: I'd give it to you but I don't have one.
Officer: Don't have one?
Older Woman: Lost it, 4 years ago for drunk driving.
Officer: I see...Can I see your vehicle registration papers please.
Older Woman: I can't do that.
Officer: Why not?
Older Woman: I stole this car.
Officer: Stole it?
Older Woman: Yes, and I killed and hacked up the owner.
Officer: You what?
Older Woman: His body parts are in plastic bags in the trunk if you want to see.
The Officer looks at the woman and slowly backs away to his car and calls for back up. Within minutes 5 police cars circle the car. A senior officer slowly approaches the car, clasping his half drawn gun.
Officer 2: Ma'am, could you step out of your vehicle please! The woman steps out of her vehicle.
Older woman: Is there a problem sir?
Officer 2: One of my officers told me that you have stolen this car and murdered the owner.
Older Woman: Murdered the owner? Officer 2: Yes, could you please open the trunk of your car, please. The woman opens the trunk, revealing nothing but an empty trunk. Officer 2: Is this your car, ma'am? Older Woman: Yes, here are the registration papers. The officer is quite stunned.
Officer 2: One of my officers claims that you do not have a driving license. The woman digs into her handbag and pulls out a clutch purse and hands it to the officer. The officer examines the license. He looks quite puzzled.
Officer 2: Thank you ma'am, one of my officers told me you didn't have a license, that you stole this car, and that you murdered and hacked up the owner.
Older Woman: Bet the liar told you I was speeding, too.
Don't Mess With Old Ladies!!
If tomorrow starts without me,
And I'm not there to see,
If the sun should rise and find your eyes
all filled with tears for me;
I wish so much you wouldn't cry
the way you did today,
While thinking of the many things,
We didn't get to say.
I know how much you love me,
As much as I love you,
And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too;
But when tomorrow starts without me,
Please try to understand,
that an angel came and called my name,
And took me by the hand,
And said my place was ready,
In heaven far above,
And that I'd have to leave behind all those I dearly love.
But as I turned to walk away,
A tear fell from my eye,
For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die.
I had so much to live for,
So much left yet to do,
it seemed almost impossible that I was leaving you.
I thought of all the yesterdays,
The good ones and the bad,
I thought of all that we shared, And all the fun we had.
If I could relive yesterday,
Just even for a while,
I'd say good-bye and kiss you and maybe see you smile.
But then I fully realized,
That this could never be,
For emptiness and memories ,would take the place of me.
And when I thought of worldly things,
I might miss some tomorrow,
I thought of you, and when I did, My heart was filled with sorrow.
But when I walked through heaven's gates,
I felt so much at home.
When God looked down and smiled at me,
From His great golden throne,
He said, 'This is eternity,
And all I've promised you.'
Today your life on earth is past,
but here life starts anew.
I promise no tomorrow,
But today will always last,
and since each day is the same way,
There's no longing for the past.
So when tomorrow starts without me,
don't think we're far apart,
For every time you think of me,
I'm right here, in your heart .
I just want to take time out to thank everyone for the inspirational support you've given me since coming to this site. It hasn't even been a week yet and I consider it to be a dream so far, and I know it'll keep getting better. We all do our recovery in our own little way. I know this site is surely helping me. I was totally surprised by all the friendliness and kind words that are shared amongst us. I'm truly here to stay... Sharon 
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