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The costal carolina area is having a unityh day July 25th. It will be a day of fun and fellowship and i've been asked to be one of the speakers...Would love some support...Beach trip! I have so many friends all over the country it would be neat to meet some of you. Hugs, Mike G
I gotta say, recovery is amazing! I have been given the gift of hope. I get the chance to travle and speak all over the place sharing the message of hope you have given me and with all that said I guess I forgot I'm just another addict...I couldnt understand how I could be in pain Lol...its funny now but in the moment not so much. Wonder why we hold ourselvs to such a high standard, I wonder why with almost 5 years clean I can love you wherever you are but think I need to be somewhere else...I guess I need to give myself a break and realize I'm human and that I'm going to go through stuff and that my Pain can become Happyness when I realize that I'm just another addict...Thanks for reading my rambleings, I hope you have had a great day and understand that recovery isn't about getting through the storm....Recovery is about learning how to dance in the rain......
I was talking to Mish when I decided to write this, so thanks Mish for always sharing with others...I got clean and was in and out of meetings never doing what people said to do to stay clean. I've got 6 feloneys one of them being armed robbery and a bunch of mist. Ive been to prison twice, 36 months and 10 months. As you may already know this kind of past can hurt your chances of getting a good job. So heres my story; Ive been in and around the restaurant and club bussines all my life,(GREAT JOB IF YOU USE)when I got clean I had trouble getting a job but I was working a program and my needs were always met. I did whatever was legal and would pay my bills.
I worked my program in all areas of my life and one day doing a 9th step amend at a place I worked in active addiction I was offered my job back! thanks HP! It payed 10 bucks an hour and I was happy it was just the job I needed at the time.
At around 2 1/2 years clean a guy I used to work for found me on myspace and at the time I had my clean time posted for all to see on that site. He called me and offered me a job as a manager at the restaurant where he was the General Manager. I took that job and then the same thing happened again with another restaurant at 3 1/2 years clean olny this time I was the G.M. One month ago a guy in my network and a dear friend told me his father needed help in there family business....For the last 3 weeks I have been running that company making more money than I ever dreamed and it was all because I stayed clean and learned how to love myself.The ironic part is we sell uniforms to Police Fire and EMS...i deal with all forms of law enforcement all day long and no longer feel less than or scared.... Because of people like you who told me that I could make it when I was sure I couldnt I wake up every day excited to be me. If you stay...if you work a program of recovery...you will learn to love yourself and thats how to get a great job!
So i've gotta share this...I go to Chapel Hill and speak and after the meeting this girl comes up to me crying and saysthat she had decided this was gonna be her last meeting, she had two years clean and was still in pain, her mom had just died and N.A. wasn't working for her....She then told me that after hearing me speak she was gonna give it another try that she didn't want to end up like me.....How about that...never under estimate the power of a bad example! You see at two years clean my mom died and I couldn't quit feeling sorry for myself and I went back out! I almost didn't make it back, my EGO and PRIDE almost got me killed....Thank god you loved me till I could love myself. I just got back from an N.A. convention and the first day I was there a guy came up to me and said "you spoke at a treatment center in Greenville N.C. and that night I cryed myself to sleep" That guy said I gave him hope that there is another way to live....My higher power is amazing, he can take that stuff I go through that stuff that is so painfull in the moment and turn it into hope for someone else....My pain is a gift but sometimes the gift isn't for me....Thanks God...and thank all of you who believe in the still suffering addict...we do recover
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