So i've gotta share this...I go to Chapel Hill and speak and after the meeting this girl comes up to me crying and saysthat she had decided this was gonna be her last meeting, she had two years clean and was still in pain, her mom had just died and N.A. wasn't working for her....She then told me that after hearing me speak she was gonna give it another try that she didn't want to end up like me.....How about that...never under estimate the power of a bad example! You see at two years clean my mom died and I couldn't quit feeling sorry for myself and I went back out! I almost didn't make it back, my EGO and PRIDE almost got me killed....Thank god you loved me till I could love myself. I just got back from an N.A. convention and the first day I was there a guy came up to me and said "you spoke at a treatment center in Greenville N.C. and that night I cryed myself to sleep" That guy said I gave him hope that there is another way to live....My higher power is amazing, he can take that stuff I go through that stuff that is so painfull in the moment and turn it into hope for someone else....My pain is a gift but sometimes the gift isn't for me....Thanks God...and thank all of you who believe in the still suffering addict...we do recover 
