Why am I sitting here tormented and crying uncontrolably for a man that just told me "I love you , but I am not "in lpve" with you" He just proposed marriage 4 months ago!
He is searching for that "new" relationship feeling, the butterrflies and all of that....everyone loses that in time. Real love and friendship is what sustains a realtionship, not that other BS. We are passionate about each other, we are intimate physically and emotionally, we are best friends...why isn't that enough?
I am depressed, obsessing, not eating, sleeping all day and up all night, crying most of the time...pathetic!
Why can't I just let it go and be happy that I am rid of that active alcoholic/active sex addict of a man? The has always been so much drama, 90% of it, his creation. There are a lot of men out there that want to date me and I find something wrong with every one of them because they aren't James...
What the hell is wrong with me?
For those of you following the epic drama that has been my relationship of late, I have great news! Had a sort of "mini" intervention and we have been communicating ever since (about 5 days now). He is making steps...came clean with Dad, back in program and admitting things I never thought he would and doing it on his own. YAY!
I'm going to continue to be support for him, I want to see him happy, healthy and able to accept the love I've been trying to give...
Thank you all for being so supportive of me as well...you have no idea how much it helps!
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