I still love music but was quite surprised at not having a clue as to who anyone was! LOL today I enjoy the new music on the radio! I missed the whole decade of Audio Adrenaline and love them! I missed the Mary j Blige decade because we were both smoking crack at the same time...who knew? I love all kinds of music and have expanded in these past 4 years...there is so much to be appreciated!

I love bible studies that help me focus on my defects of character. I worked on one this summer on guilt...worth it! I am free to release my guilt and shame regularly or continue on self will. Great study! I am almost finished with my pre-req's for the nursing program. I will begin microbiology on Aug. 26 for the fall semester. I began schooling again out of sheer boredom with just going to work. I had a desire to be a nurse that I never fulfilled so here I go! I study alot. Other readings I rely on are the NA Basic Text, NA Just For Today, Language of Letting Go, Each Day a New Beginning, NACR daily meditations, NACR daily blog.

not a big movie person. I went to the theatre 2 years ago but didn't like to have to sit there when i became bored with the story. Now I will watch DVD's people lend to me when they suggest me to watch. The last movie I watched was Hairspray and I loved it! just fun!

I love parakeets and have 3 of them. I love to hear them sing and fly around my room, safely of course! I still rent a large room from a wonderful couple who practice lots of peace and meditation but are normies! can you imagine? And if working steps with others can be considered a hobby then add that to my list! I love meeting and getting to know people who live without the use of substances!

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I am an addict. I have used drugs all my life with moments of abstinence. Long before I picked up my first joint in a circle of vietnam vets I was a run away. I still get urges to run but I choose to stay. I choose to work my steps for further comfortablility in my own skin. I work with others that are willing to work their own steps. I have repeated step work over and over and find new words everytime I read them. New truths as if they weren't there before. They are living words and show up as my teacher when I am ready to be the student and not a moment sooner.

I find many new interests when I search for what has been going on in this world since my last run started 15 years prior to coming into recovery! Feeling alot like one coming out of a coma I see that life didn't wait for me to return! The internet was fairly new when I started smoking crack but it didn't get my drug dealer to me any quicker so I never bothered to check it out. I find that black is not my favorite color. That I have other favorite colors depending on my moods. I found that I still love reading but now I read what is going to untwist my thinking.

I dislike people who make excuses for using. I need to love them from afar, thank God for the principles before personalities clause! this is what saves me and them! I dislike when I see my defects that I had all along but I never saw. When I get new eyes I get mad, sad, then I come to acceptance! I am still not a fan of that process but my only other choice is to fight it and use. And using is not an option. I always said "I am a good person" but truth is I am not always a good person.