Hello there, my name is Chanel. You can call me w/e you want, as long as it's nice :-)
I am a 22 year old girl that is a porn, fantasy, cyber sex addict in recovery. I'm not sure though. As a young woman, I am conflicted w/sex & just wonder if it's a curiousity or if it's something that I should take more seriously. I remember realizing on Dec. 22, 2005 that I had a problem.
Anyways, I'm here to look for other addicts like myself, especially around my age. A sponsor or a mentor would help too.
I also have major self-esteem, jealousy, social & trust issues with myself & others. That's something else that I believe needs to be worked on as I go through with my recovery...
Anyways, I'm basically your typical 22 year old girl that's in college, babysits, is a product demonstrator at Sam's Club, & likes to have fun & meet new people. Fashion, photography & music is my life. I have issues, but I deal. I have trust & anti-social issues, even if I love meeting new people. I believe that I crush too much as well. Could be a part of my addiction.
Feel free to comment.
"Spiritual not religious awareness is important to me. It is through continued spiritual growth that I maintain my sobriety."
You've got me wrapped up in you
Somehow you let me in
Into your web of bittersweet, of ecstasy and sin
Feel like an angel falling out from grace
I try to run, but I keep on falling
And every time I turn around
I hear your voice and it keeps on calling
I'm bound, there's no way out
No way out.....
You wanted me to want you
I couldn't help myself
You became my addiction
I won't need nothing else
Feel like I'm trapped inside these walls
Trying to find my way
It's like a dream, you can't wake up from.
It's a hunger that can't be satisfied....
No matter how I try there's no escape....
