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I was 15 years old when I finally took a clear look at my life and tried getting sober for the first time.
Drugs made me feel pretty, when they were actually destroying my body and my mind. I thought I was smarter and every time I looked in the mirror, I loved what I saw. I was being tricked but was too far gone to see it. I would lie and manipulate people and steal money from my parents to get what I wanted. Part of me wanted help, but was too ashamed and afraid to ask for it. I was slowly dying inside and out and was on the road of losing myself forever.
I would not be where I am now without the support and love of my dad and friends. Every day, I make amends to them. I’ve made sacrifices to get to where I am now. Being sober is my first priority and I lost quite a few friends (that used) so that I could stay clean. I had to change my whole lifestyle. People that I thought were my "friends" never call me now that I am clean. I only have a few close friends now, but I'm not complaining. Instead of hanging out with people who are keeping me sick, I've made friends with people who are helping me stay healthy and safe. I had to learn self worth and love my life so that I could overcome my addictive behaviors.
I've had relapses, but I'm learning from them. While I live with being judged because of it, I know that I am truly happy and content with not drinking or using. I believe that being sober is the greatest choice I have made in my life. It’s taught me how to get bring things I was hiding in the open, get rid of the darkness of my past and put light towards the future. I’ve figured out how to deal with things responsibly when they’re seen as they truly are. The people I have met in my journey to recovery are some of the most kind, helpful, and successful people I have ever met.
I'm just taking this road to recovery one day at a time.
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